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Laments of a Social Fly

2010-04-08T03:15:00.000-07:00

Is love meant to be an Anchor?
When did it become a Social Sin?
It has been, and is, my life's
Only possible philosophy,
To love all, and even if,
I could not succeed,
To be decent and pleasant to Them.
I find myself, sometimes,
Surrounded by half-strangers,
For my philosophy keeps me
From edging closer.
Some other times,
Ifind myself surrounded,
By familiar, loving, smiling Faces.
Why must there be conflicts,
That hurt so?
Often enough - nay,
More than I understand,
Conflict breaks out around me;
Left, Right, Front, Back,
North, South, East, West.
Then, that triggers the Gun,
The center of me,
And I explode with an outbursting
Of emotions,
Shot from within,
Caught in an unwelcome crossfire.
Shot from within.
I don't know where to begin to understand,
I know not why I should be made so to comprehend.
Why am I put in these hateful situations?
I try to put on a brave face,
try to joke about it,
But some jokes are no laughing matter.
If I loved more people,
I would be hurt more, wouldn't I?
Experiences of a Social Butterfly,
Seep into my lacking life,
Life of a Social Fly.

There I go joking again.

Through my tears.

Of Blogging and Sucking

2010-04-04T17:58:00.000-07:00

I shall make this short, but clear:

Today, I shall blog about How Much I SUCK at Blogging.

I haven't blogged in... I don't know... 7 to 8 months? maybe? 20 years? And when I do blog, I go and rant about lame things, like how I cannot commit to blogging at all. I'm not sure I've ever blogged about something remotely constructive.

This just shows how totally useless I am at making up my mind anout one thing, and keeping to it...How am I going to get through life?

On the up-side, I've finally updated... That's one good thing. Isn't it?

Catching The Sunrise

2009-09-22T19:44:00.000-07:00

AHHHH!! Am finally updating!! Gosh, it's been too long. *pats self on the head*

Note to Dalia:
Here it is, Dal. the one you've been asking me to post. Enjoy! =)

Note to other readers or whoever this may concern (a.k.a. readers), I wrote this way back when I was going through a "beach craze", and couldn't refrain from sifting through my memories of the many beaches I had visited, the last one being when I was..er...in Primary 4, I think? I kept bugging my mum - yes, I'm admitting it - to arrange a holiday for us, but to no avail. So, I HAD to come up with another way to satisfy my frustrated yearnings. Thus, I give thee The Poem...

Catching the Sunrise
That one day when I awoke
In a chalet near the beach,
Waves one by one on the great rocks broke,
Yet, the calmness could not be breached.
While everyone was still safely wrapped
Within the deep realms of slumber,
I was carefully putting on my jacket
So as to become a hunter.
I crept out of doors and put on my slippers,
A little gingerly.
I would hunt for peace and seashells,
Along the deep, green sea.
Like little plains of powdered silk,
The sand was cool and soft.
I left my slippers back behind,
Deciding on a walk.
On and through the welcoming grey sand,
that I could feel over my feet,
I stepped into the gentle sea,
And the sky began to lit.
Streaks of gold was smeared a cross
The dim but light blue sky,
While purple, pink, orange, and red,
Seemed to be just passing by.
Each and every cloud around
The birth of this new morn
Was stained with this wonderful coloured blush,
that foretold of this one dawn.
Such majesty, mystery, beauty and wonder
Seen in so close a sky,
Seems to embody that which we
Cannot achieve though we may try.
Seeing this in mortal land,
Where life ends and first began,
I cannot help but try to imagine and ponder
The greater possibilities of Heaven.

2nd of March, 2009

I hope whoever reads it like it, but it does seem to be asking for a little too much. It's funny, you know. The way one thinks one's done a good job, but then feel that light touch of embarassment when others read it, I mean. And it gets worse when someone actually LIKES IT. *whimper*

Responding to Teresa's Tag From Last Year

2009-07-21T23:26:00.000-07:00

I kneeeooowww! Lame right? She tagged me on the 11th of July last year, ad I'm only responding now? Well, I just remembered in my time of need. (Note: need = get un-bored). Good excuse, huh? Well, here goes...

1. What's the relationship of you and her/him?

: Friends
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2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?

: Confident (her cup of confidence is always overflowing...)

: Loud and laughy (^^)

: Smart (Tooo smart...)

: Cool, but slightly panicky (Sometimes... :P)

: Uniquely unique :)
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3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you:

: Oh. let me see....hmmm... it's a tie between "I am so Pregnant right now", and "I will never mock pregnant women again", I think. Or maybe "You are a ditcher". Or, "Listen to me!" (which is her catchphrase...only she doesn't know it. Hee :D

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you:

: Called me a ditcher, thus expanding my vocabulary by that little bit. Asked about L.I.E. class for me. Being my friend. :)

5. If she/he became your lover, you will

: see oranges give birth to pigs. Oh, and laugh. :)

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will

: watch my pinky grow a head. Oh, and cry for the day when I was forewarned by an ominous tag on blogger. Of course, we'll have to wait till I see that head growing out of my pinky first.. :)

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7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on

: rethinking her reasons for not liking guys anymore, and bequething me with a bouquet of guilt for being the cause of it all... sad, I know.

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8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is

: Teardrops started falling on my guitar. (Note: I am practically tone deaf and thus do not own a guitar. Or any other instrument. Not likely to start now this late in life, am I?)

*moving on with dignity*

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9. The most desirable thing to do on for him/her is?

: Brainwash her so that she will no longer be Robsessive, and will not tattoo R.P.'s name on her own body!!! Oh, and pray that her headache is now in the past.

10. The overall impression of him/her is...

: Confident and quirky (...mostly). Domineering (...a bit). Endearing (...yes). Bright (...?... XD). She and Sam seem to have this ray of sunlight following them when they're together. You know, like they're sunflowers or something... :)

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11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?

: weirded off? annoyed? happy? sad? I can't say cause I'm not them. :)

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12. The character of you for yourself is?

: eh? what does this question mean? EXPLANATION PLEASE! Of course, in case I'm right in thinking out its meaning, my character of me for myself is a nerd who isn't a nerd but is one nontheless. Oh, and confusing to myself sometimes.

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13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

: Oh, seems my interpretation was wrong. Go back and redo it? Nah! Okay, the character...characters...I hate of myself is...are...being lazy, and being indecisive. And being so freely and totally frank. On second thoughts, the feeling doesn't actually extend to hate, but is more of a degree of dislike.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?

: a tree. No, I'm kidding. I want to be the real and true Me, all the time.

15. For the people who care about you and like you, say something about them.

: They are caring. And they too are likeable people. I love them!

16. Ten people to tag:
1. Dalia
2. Teresa C.
3. Teresa T. (I'm re-tagging you! ^^)
4. Jacklyn
5. Cindy
6. Lau Xin Wen
7. Marcella
8. Angelina
9. Felicia
10. Sam.
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17. Who is no.2 having a relationship with? [Teresa C.]
: Her family members (she shall be in a life-long relationship with them), her friends (friendly relationships), her leaders (leader-follower relationships), her crushes, So-and-so...so-and-so...(some sort of relationship) in her mind (?). :D

18. Is no.3 a male or female? [Teresa T.]

: Female. But, you know, sometimes I wonder, what with all her masculine energy... haha.. just joking. She is definitely female. And might I mention, one with many 'admirers'.

19. How will no.9 react if he/she found out that his/her cell phone is lost? [Felicia]

: Don't actually know that she owns a cell phone even, so the question is as yet unanswerable.

20. If no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing? [Marcella and Sam]

: I guess. Both are good friends of Teresa, and if she can interact happily with them, I suppose they would be able to interact just as happily with each other if they got together as friends. So, it's a good thing. Right?

21. How about no.5 and no.8? [Cindy and Angelina]

: I think so, as friends of course. Both of them are small people (I should talk), and they both like to laugh. So there you have two similarities already!

22. What is no.1 studying about? [Dalia]

: PiLi MIT, and cute guys.

23. Is no.4 single? [Jacklyn]

: Think so.... Jac, any news with *ahem* yet? (Note: just putting that because don't know who she currently likes, to save face. And my stupid side types this down. Yep. Saving face. -.-)

24. Say something about no.6 [Lau Xin Wen]

: She loves CSI, like me. CSI New York, to be exact. She is one good friend, and I love her laugh. She is goofy and adorable in character. And her discs are still with me. She is Strawberry and the Nutcracker Princess.

New Profile Photo

2009-06-18T00:10:00.000-07:00

There! I have finally given up on trying (unsuccessfully), to remain an anonymous blogger.